We all know a lot about me by now….. we know I started this
journey with a lot of weight to lose, to be exact, 105 pounds… and a whole lot
of confidence to gain.…...I am nearly halfway there in just over three months
time. I have gotten there with the most
amazing products of Isagenix and the support of so many of my friends, and even
people I don’t know cheering me on along the way.
Everyone gets somewhere from a point A to a point B………… my point A was on January 7th….. I was at a
restaurant with some girlfriends and having sushi….nothing crazy went on that
day….normal Sunday….fairly relaxing. I
was 255 pounds and uncomfortable in my own skin. I remember sitting at the table eating when
all of a sudden out of nowhere the room started to get very “foggy” so to speak
and my hearing started to go…my vision got blurry and my heart was racing out of
my chest and my throat felt like it was tightening as I breathed. Oh my fucking God, I’m 34 years old and I’m
having a heart attack. I’m having a heart attack in my plate of raw salmon and
tuna………..WHAT….THE……FUCK! All that was
racing through my mind was fuck, fuck, fuck (there I go again with that word…it
works in SO many situations to enhance things I think) I am going to die at
Miyabi and never see my 4 year old son or my husband again……This is how I’m
going to die…..because at that moment that is exactly what it felt like….and
every fiber of my being began to have regret with how I’d abused my body over
the years….how I’d eaten whatever I wanted, processed foods out the wazoo,
fruits and vegetables laden in pesticides… meat filled with antibiotics….I drank
diet soda like it was water and never drinking water because it wasn’t diet soda or iced
tea with Splenda (my two drinks of choice).
What was going through my head was literally -this is it, this is what
you get for all those times you said “I’ll just start tomorrow”……this was my
favorite phrase…it was always “oh I’ll just start tomorrow, and enjoy today”…but
what was I enjoying? Being tired and
sick or sick and tired all the time…sick and tired and nearly dead it felt like?
Dragging my ass out of bed each morning to “get through” another day? I wasn’t enjoying anything…I was going through
my life feeling like crap….but in my mind at that very moment all I kept
thinking was “what if there isn’t a tomorrow now, what if I’ve run out of tomorrow’s?”
At 34 years old these should never be
normal things that run through your head…. Hell at any age one shouldn’t have
to feel or think this way. But there I
was….on my way to the hospital thinking “I’ve really done it now!”
Newsflash … I didn’t die! For everyone who was biting their
nails at the last paragraph……………..I am still here!
After being put on a slew of unnecessary medicine (of course
at the time I didn’t realize this, I was just taking what the doctor prescribed
me.) Here was the laundry list of shit I was put on….medicine for high blood
pressure, heart palpitations, anxiety, depression, vertigo….. AND she even
threw in some shit for reflux and indigestion because why the hell not
right? I was a walking disaster of
health problems…and now a walking pharmacy too. Funny how though NOT ONCE did either
doctor I saw at the hospital or my follow up at my general practitioner, not
even once mention what was staring us all smack in the face. No one said to me “you may want to lose a
little weight.” Not one professional in
a white coat uttered those words to me…..I was handed 5 prescriptions and sent
on my way. Are you fucking kidding
me????? I mean it isn’t that I didn’t know
I needed to lose weight, trust me, I thought about it 23.5 hours out of the day
(the other .5 hours in my day were consumed by me saying the word “fuck”). So for three weeks straight I took this
arsenal of medications (again that I didn’t need) all of them causing side
effects, some worse than the thing they were treating….
I knew something had to give….I needed to do SOMETHING or I
was going to either end up diabetic, or have a REAL heart attack. I was NOT going to allow that to happen….I
needed a solution……I was in one of my darkest places…..severely overweight….tired
ALL the time….extremely unmotivated….overall just a very unhappy person.
In walked my best friend…. I’ve mentioned her in my blog
before, and Jacqui you know I will always be eternally grateful for sharing
this amazing system with me. All those
meds I was on in January…I was off of them first week I started using
Isagenix. Not only that, I haven’t had a
single cup of coffee since the beginning…and you are talking about a chick that
drank 5-6 cups a day. Not only that but
I fucking don’t crave sweets anymore and haven’t since I started! Sure once in awhile when I’m out to dinner I’ll
have a bite or two of dessert but the old me would have eaten the entire plate
and picked it up and licked the remainders off of it (I’m totally fucking with
you- that is completely Neanderthal, after all I AM a fucking lady!)
I want to share this amazing system with everyone I know….I
want to share it with everyone I DON’T know too…that is how passionate I am
about it. I don’t care if people get tired
of hearing about it from me, I’m not gonna stop talking about it. I wanna go buy a damn bull horn and drive
around my neighborhood and embarrass my husband by shouting it out the windows
of the car to people. (Wheels are
spinning in my head right now, how can I do something like this and get away
with it legally? Seems like SUCH an awesome plan if you ask me) Maybe none of
you are asking but I still think that would be BAD ASS!.....an Isagenix van……
with samples to hand out…..Kinda like the ice cream man but I’m so much cooler
than he is and I won’t play that annoying music….and I’d be giving away healthy
stuff (or excepting donations, either or, after all gotta keep that van gassed
up ya know or my whole plan is totally shot to shit) not the crap that keeps making you tired, and
heavy and miserable.
My point here people is everyone needs to feel good….who
wants to go through life tired and feeling like every day at 3 pm they just
wanna take a nap. That was my life
before…..and I will never go back. I can
say that with confidence because of ALL of the changes that came along with
changing my lifestyle. From the loss of
46 pounds, to glowing skin, to a better attitude about myself and feeling good
now when I look in the mirror. I have
never felt like this before…and it just keeps getting better and better every
single day. That night in January was
one of BEST, worst nights of my life…..because it was an eye opener for
me. I finally WOKE the FUCK up! I am halfway to my point B and I’m enjoying
every step of the way!
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